I am dirt (2018)

All the Birds

From this morning
I am no more
All the birds are singing on my monument
Mud from the rain
Grey skies above me

It is just the way it is
When the worms and maggots feed
Now the poisoning it’s all over the ground
I’m turning into dust…

From this morning I am no more
All the birds are singing songs
For this monument
(Singing songs)

From this morning just forget about me
Go on with your life
I am dirt
(I am dirt)

From this morning I am no more
All the birds are singing songs
For this monument
(Singing songs)

From this morning just forget about me
Go on with your life
I am dirt
(I am dirt)

Nausea

Just an average day
Usual and gray
In your grave
Memories remain
But I am stuck inside of them
Buried myself alive in there

Deafness, dust and bareness
Screaming words of promise
Worms come from your words and I eat them
You left me rot in endless sickness

Just an average night
In dust I swathe, no lights
Just real lies
Under the gloomy skies
All that is left is just to rot
Your whispers deeply in my thoughts

The Island of Harmony

Living the life of a broken man
Throwing away all your promises
You need now to learn how to let it go
Mirrors won’t lie you were told before

Afraid of your steps, you’re not looking back
Fighting in vain with your inner self
Rotting inside, you count all the wrongs
You lost it all, it’s forever gone

With stains in the memory
Empty words of agony
Shooting yourself into
Accursed destiny

Standing in darkness, you
Are left with just the option to
Fight it all over now
You’re lost and can’t be found

You stand on the edge, you’re not looking back
Afraid of your words, broke your promises
Threw all in, it’s all over now
Nothing in the mirror, you’re rotting out

In different reality
What have just done to me?
Got lost in the words somehow
And there is no going back now
There is no going back now
There is no going back now
To the isle of harmony

Until We Are Gone

The sun won’t shine this morning
The ground will shake and fall apart
But we will rise
And we will last much more than that

The sea will drop the final drops
And we will never see the stars
But you and I
We will burn forever young

These words I leave for you today
They are all just yours to take
To keep you warm
To save you from the cruel world

Also take these memories
Feelings tame, under palm trees
And forever have these words
So you’ll don’t forget how much I love you

All I have all I am
Is this manifest
All the words that I sing
Are for you and me
And we will sing our song
Until we are gone

It Falls Apart

It falls apart
All that they can see around is darkness, hurts,
Devastation at it’s best
The pain is now
Stronger than it ever was and cuts them down
It’s time to say farewell my love

Distrusting
Desire, hatred, love and pain, all in regret
A quiet painful death
Two hearts grief
All it ever been they wish they never had
Now everything turns gray and black

She gently whispers
And disappears
Somewhere in time and fading memory

In the morning he wakes up
She is gone
Without a trace
She’s just a memory

In Mud

I took out the dusty seed
Before it grew
I greeted the dying sun
When it just went through
I was talking to the empty sky
But answers never came
I stood among the living ones
But it was all in flames

Eating my own corpse now
Feeding myself to death
I trapped myself in this life
With a finger on my head
I staggered and
My flesh decayed
I fed the vultures and
Became forever damned

Eating my own flesh now
Painting my self with blood
Pointing to the living ones
Drowning in the mud
What is left is just
Another smiling mask
Eating my own flesh now
I am already dead

Eating my own flesh now
Painted my self with blood
Pointing to the living ones

Eating my own flesh now
Painting myself with blood
Pointing to the living ones
Drowning in the mud
What is left is just
Another smiling mask
You’re staring at the watch
You’re already dead

Dying Star

Look at where we are
Living lives apart in parallel
We didn’t even started
So close to the top and then we failed

Just a fiction
A false alarm
I wanna trust you
I’m still dying to touch you

So can you feel me now?
We’re so close to our dying star

(We’re living in a lie)
Are we living in a lie?
Will we ever have this dream
Knowing that we’re thrown apart
I guess we’ll never be
I guess it’s all unreal
And our wounds will never heal

Can you touch me now?
Can you see me through the glass?
It’s all we ever need to pass
And we will run our lives
Without temptations
Wondering what could have been
So I will wait for you
I will wait for eternity…

Are you happy?
Or do you feel the same?
I guess the fault is ours to blame
We’re running through our lives
Believed in all the lies
Wondering what could have been…

So will we run away
from our dying star?

Are we living in a lie?
Will we ever have this dream
Knowing that we’re thrown apart
(We’re living in a lie)
I guess we’ll never be
I guess it’s all unreal
And our wounds will never heal

Parade

 Golden age
Blazing opportunities
In harmonic symphony
Yet we’re singing hopelessly
Fading in the dark
Running with a plan
Black and grey I see
Rat race, insecurity
Different views of same ending
All in all we’re

Spinning around now well entertained
Debris of doom slowly decaying
Such a wonderful mess we’re left to deal with, who’s to blame
Bombs blast, we’ll all sink,
You’re just history

Stay now at home well entertained
Tied to your bed, enjoy your praying
The war is far and you are safe so enjoy your game
Clock ticks, you like peace
Shots blast, victory

They’re calling your name, get out of bed
No time to pray, guns on your forehead
You’re one of them now so act and do as you should do
You like inner peace
Time comes, you must cease

Vows & Thieves

I will not write anymore
This is the last time
I know
I’m lying myself

Traces lost, forgotten dreams
Just faded memories
What is true and what exists
Everything’s lost it seems
We should have had everything
But we’ve missed…

I will not talk anymore
This is the last time
I know
I’m lying myself

Empty words of promises
We’re always missing piece
Opened doors and broken keys
Can we move on like this?
Our hearts are filled with doubts
Yet, you don’t exist

Staring in an empty wall
Spending all our time on our own
On our own
Living in our parallels
Seeing different views of our selves
And we both know
We lost it all
But promises we won’t let go

Oooh.. faded memories…
Oooh.. faded memories…
Oooh.. faded memories…
Oooh.. faded memories…

I will not write anymore
This is the last song
I know
I’m lying myself

Water flows, we’re sinking in
Like broken memories
Dying hope, or just a dream
We can’t go on it seems
We’re lost and can’t be found now
But the echoes still – we hear somehow

Vows, words of promises
And we keep on moving far away
On our own
On our own
We’re beggars, thieves
Living in our memories
Betrayers of our given words
Blessed in our slavery

I won’t write anymore
I won’t tell anyone
Time will destroy our memories

And now we’re screaming numb,
I won’t tell anyone
We’ll close our eyes down with the sun

I won’t write anymore
I won’t tell anyone
Whenever stars are falling down

And now we see it through
We’re breathing lies
Vows, words of our demise

Hope

I wanna sympathize with these victims of reality
Living on the edge of anxiety
I wanna feel the wounds of the civilized and modern man
Knowing I’ll never be the same again

I wanna fly up high above the oceans and the seas
They’ll cut my wings, their love will cripple me
I wanna touch the sky, the stars, the edge of the galaxy
They’ll say I am to small to dream, I’m nobody

Yet, here we are
The sun is out again
Shining closer with each day
I’m counting stars
They’re just behind these bars
I will be free, the end is near

I wanna sympathize with these victims of reality
Living on the edge of anxiety
I wanna touch the sky, the stars, the edge of the galaxy
They’ll say I am to small to dream, I’m nobody

Yet, here we are
The sun is out again
Shining closer with each day
I’m counting stars
They’re just behind these bars
I will be free, the end is near

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